Monday, May 13, 2013

Learning to.........Delight!!!

My absolute favorite verse and why I named this blog after it. I have never been more thankful for the calling that God has on my life. It is a calling that I can not do on my own.... not even a little bit. 

"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults,hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong." 2 Corin. 12:9-10

We HATE weaknesses, don't we?? We don't like to feel powerless, weak, insufficient. We don't like when others see our weaknesses and we have very little tolerance for others weaknesses.  

 (vs.9) Boast.....With gladness...

TRUTH~ Gods word says that our weaknesses are GOOD! He calls us to share openly about our weaknesses with gladness. Not just gladness, but also to be content with them!

 PROMISE~ ............SO THAT the power of Christ may rest upon me......

I feel my weaknesses are constantly on display, especially when it comes to being a wife and mother. There are days when I literally wake up all ready depleted. Yesterday, as we celebrated Mother's Day, I had a tiny moment of a breakdown. How often I fail more then I "get it right." My heart is to lead them to Jesus and yet, so many times I allow my exhaustion to lead. 

Last night I cred out to Lord to help me seek HIM first.... "I don't want to be this person.." I cried out. "I want to be the wife and mom you have called me to be, not perfect, but obedient. Help me to lead those around me to YOU!!" It's tough to do exactly what I ask my kids to do.... "Just pray! Even if you have to stop what you are doing a hundred times a day... Just Pray!"  

 I get to be the mother to five amazing children and the wife to a man I don't deserve, which means I get to pray them through life. Not fix problems (though wise counsel is good) but PRAY! It's our gift that HE has given us and there is so much power in it. Not because everything will be magically better, but it redirects our hearts to HIS! ...... and that! .... That is what I'm seeking......

This morning, the Lord gave me an opportunity to do just that. One of our babies woke up angry (not uncommon) and just mean (not uncommon) and we always tell this child that they are operating in the flesh and we can't be "good" or sweet, or loving with out HIS power. Let's pray for the Lord to help you, Let's ask for forgiveness and ask Him to help you.... This child would never do it.... and though I can pray for them, I can't make them do it..... This sweet child is only displaying on the outside what we all feel and do on the inside. BUT This morning, through tears, this child wanted too, but was held back.... Not understanding the tears and the feelings behind it.... "I don't even know what to say to Him."...... and we talked and prayed and embraced those tears..... and the prayer just came......

Was everything perfect after that??? Nope! BUT it's in those moments that we know that God is at work. Not because of me, but because of His love for us...... and in my exhaustion ... Those are the moments I want to remember.....  (singing) " With the world behind me, and the cross before me"

Sometimes the spiritual attacks can cut us deep. I long to have a heart that stops in the middle of the mess and say "Thank you Jesus, thank you for this pain, this uncertainty. Thank you for allowing me to put my weaknesses on full display so that others may see YOU." What an honor! What a privilege that I take for granted, every.single.time!

(1Corin. 1:31) "Let the one who boasts, boast in the Lord."

1 comment:

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