Thursday, September 29, 2011

Just a little some thing...

Our week has been crazy. It is even harder when I am not feeling well and unfortunately I have been in bed most of the time.

Believe it or not. I still got a lot accomplished and not only that, but God has been so gracious to open my eyes just a little this week to how I have been behaving.

My caring kids who hate when I am not feeling well (it happens a lot) but they jump at the chance to try and make me feel better.

My little one "reading" to me while I am in bed.

School has been nothing short of a miracle. I say this because every year I am super stressed and am always wondering if I am doing enough or to much. But so far this year, I have just been taking it one day at a time and accomplishing what we can. It has been fun!!
Also our little Jacob has a hard time holding his pencil and some other things that have been going on. We found out that he has low muscle tone. We have been doing exercises with him and there has been a drastic change in such a short period of time. I wish I had a picture of a "before" the way he would hold his pencil and work. But here is the "after" :)
Working hard on their school work.

Our dinner conversations are crazy. My family is a bunch a funny, off the wall crazy people. I don't know how else to put it.They make me laugh and hubby is always the one who starts it.  Most people do bible study at their table, or listen to music, we make each other laugh so hard that sometimes it is hard to eat.  We always have this thing where anytime Jacob gets up from the table, hubby will add food to his plate. He constantly gets up. The other night we had mashed potatoes and when he got up we all put the rest of ours on his plate.  but this time we decided to make a snow man out of the food. His face was priceless when he sat back down. I wish I would have gotten a picture. We all never laughed so hard! I would share the conversations that we have but I don't want to embarrass myself ;) 

Our master piece.

Today my daughter received her first pen pal letter in the mail. She was so excited. It was a blessing because I never had them start theirs like I promised :/  so this made us all excited and they got to work right away!

Who needs a table when you have a perfectly good floor.
It is so fun getting mail. I am excited when everyone starts writing them back. Maybe they will be lifelong friends :)

Tomorrow is our cutie pie (at some point I am going to have to stop calling him that) Jacob's 5th Birthday!!!

He is so stinkin cute!!
Jacob is our little comedian and will do anything to make you laugh.  He is also super affectionate and a joy to be around.
    HAPPY BIRTHDAY My precious boy!! I am beyond blessed to be your mother!!!!

A lot has happened this week, some I can't share just yet. No it has nothing to do with Caleb, we are still waiting. One thing that God has laid so heavy on my heart is, that this is where He has me. By this I mean everything that is being thrown or not thrown my way. I am learning what it means to have a heart of gratitude, joy. Nothing is ever promised and when I get to Heaven and stand before my King I don't want to have a complaining heart, I want to be able to say "Thank you Lord for putting me in that pit, for throwing us an awesome curve ball, for blessing us in ways that we never even appreciated, for trusting us with so much, for allowing me to be your servant, for helping me back up every time I fall"  I don't want to complain or whine, or want things to be different, because THIS IS EXACTLY HOW THE LORD WANTS IT.  And if I want His will, then this should be EXACTLY HOW I WANT IT. 

Friday, September 23, 2011

When it is to much.....

I have been feeling so many attacks lately. It is getting to the point where it is even consuming my sleep. I have been having horrible nightmares. Not even sure if I should call them nightmares, but whatever they are it is not good. I wake up feeling this huge burden over me. I wake up feeling attacked by the enemy, in a way I never have before. I wake up feeling completely helpless and all I want is for it to go away.

But then the Lord gently reminds me that I am suppose to feel helpless, because apart from Him I can do nothing.  And it's not until I finally let go of the reins that I can truly see Him.

If only I would let go.......

And then this morning I see my son playing with his army men and all I can think is.....

                          God is so much bigger then anything that this world throws at me.

"He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will abide in the shadow of the Almighty, I will say to the Lord, "My refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust." For He will deliver you from the snare of the fowler and from the deadly pestilence. He will cover you with His pinions, and under His wings you will find refuge; His faithfulness is a shield and a buckler. You will not fear the terror of the night, nor the arrow that flies by day, nor the pestilence that stalks the darkness, nor the destruction that wastes at noonday. A thousand may fall at your side, ten thousand at your right hand, but it will not come near you. You will only look with your eyes and see the recompense of the wicked. Because you have made the Lord your dwelling place- The Most High, who is my refuge- no evil shall be allowed to befall you no plague come near your tent. For He will command His angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways. On their hands they will bear you up, lest you strike your foot against a stone. You will tread on the lion and the adder; the young lion and the serpent you will trample underfoot."
Psalm 91:1-13

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

Catching up!!

It has been a long time since I last blogged. Sometimes......okay, every time.... God has to drag me through the mud to get me back to where I need to be... eyes focused on Him.

Here's what is going on:

We were submitted to Embassy on September 8th. We just got the email today from the Embassy stating that they wanted additional documents. How long with this take? I have no clue! Are these documents even something that they are able to get? I have no clue! 

I am not going to lie, this is beyond frustrating. Knowing that Caleb is legally ours and all we need is his visa and yet we are still jumping through hoops. I don't understand!!!!! but here is the kicker, I don't have too. The truth of the matter is, if God wanted Caleb to be home, then he would be. Its not like any of this caught Him by surprise. That is where Faith steps in. It is by Faith that we ask God to do the impossible, It is By Faith that we cry out in anger, in heartbreak knowing He cares even more then we do. It is By Faith that we pick ourselves up and walk in Obedience knowing that He means what He says. It is By Faith that we pray and praise, pray and praise some more, and then ask God to help us when we can't pray and praise anymore. It is By Faith that I know Caleb will be home sooner then anyone thinks :)

If you would join us in prayer, we would really appreciate it <3

It has been exactly 2 months since I last held  my boy :( I could get all sappy on you and tell you how much it hurts but instead we are celebrating today, because.......

Today is my precious little girls 7th Birthday!!!! Oh my how the time has flown! I call her my little momma. She is so caring and wants nothing more then to help someone do anything. She just wants to help! Sometimes to much ;)

We are having her and her brothers (his birthday is next week) party tomorrow, so today we just hung out in our jammies and did what girls do. You  know.. Paint each others nails :)

Working hard on her toes

All done! I did her hands and she did her toes!

Super fun!
 Most of you may all ready know, but daddy has a special thing that he does with his girls. Since their first birthday he gets them flowers. He wanted to get them flowers that no one else would give them. He has a special flower for each girl.  Hubby gets Brianna sunflowers.  So every year on her birthday no matter if he is working, he gets her flowers.

Daddy with his oldest girl!

I did not ask her to do this. She loves her daddy!
I just love my hubbys heart.

Happy Birthday my beautiful Brianna. The Lord has gifted you with a beautiful servants heart. Even at your age you seek out kids and make sure that you have introduced yourself and ask them to play with you. You truly love them just for them and you look past everything else. I am excited to see how God will use that gift as you get older. 
                    Blessed beyond measure that the Lord would allow me to be your mother <3 <3