When it is to much.....

I have been feeling so many attacks lately. It is getting to the point where it is even consuming my sleep. I have been having horrible nightmares. Not even sure if I should call them nightmares, but whatever they are it is not good. I wake up feeling this huge burden over me. I wake up feeling attacked by the enemy, in a way I never have before. I wake up feeling completely helpless and all I want is for it to go away.

But then the Lord gently reminds me that I am suppose to feel helpless, because apart from Him I can do nothing.  And it's not until I finally let go of the reins that I can truly see Him.

If only I would let go.......


And then this morning I see my son playing with his army men and all I can think is.....

                          God is so much bigger then anything that this world throws at me.

"He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will abide in the shadow of the Almighty, I will say to the Lord, "My refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust." For He will deliver you from the snare of the fowler and from the deadly pestilence. He will cover you with His pinions, and under His wings you will find refuge; His faithfulness is a shield and a buckler. You will not fear the terror of the night, nor the arrow that flies by day, nor the pestilence that stalks the darkness, nor the destruction that wastes at noonday. A thousand may fall at your side, ten thousand at your right hand, but it will not come near you. You will only look with your eyes and see the recompense of the wicked. Because you have made the Lord your dwelling place- The Most High, who is my refuge- no evil shall be allowed to befall you no plague come near your tent. For He will command His angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways. On their hands they will bear you up, lest you strike your foot against a stone. You will tread on the lion and the adder; the young lion and the serpent you will trample underfoot."

Psalm 91:1-13