Once a week my hubby teaches a community group and we are all going through a book called Gospel Transformation. The main topic that we always talk about is that this life is God's story, not ours. Sometimes I have to really think about whose story I am living.
Today I FINALLY was able to mail in my dossier to get authenticated. Yesterday I just broke down and cried in frustration at trying to get a hold of a women who notarized one of my documents but never signed her name. Today I was able to find her and I dropped everything, grabbed my four kids and we drove over an hour a way and passed 3 tolls (ridiculous) just to see this women for 10 seconds to sign my paper. Then I went to FedEx to send it out. It was a very exciting moment, but also scary. They better not lose those papers :)
On the way home from driving everywhere I was thinking about how this adoption is not my story or our new son's, but Gods. Then I wondered if I was truly living out His story in all areas of my life.
Think about the way you would feel if one of your babies grew up not living for the Lord. Wouldn't you pray and plead and be on your knees every single day asking God to grab a hold of their hearts? I know I would. I pray for them everyday now. Shouldn't we feel that same urgency with the people around us that don't know Him? Shouldn't we be begging on our knees every night asking God to grab a hold of our neighbors hearts or or co-workers or our friend, parents. Etc. Shouldn't we have the same pain for others that are lost? Do you? Are you doing all you can to really reach those around you or are you just concerned about your kids?
I home school and I really enjoy sharing Jesus with my kids. What about your church and the kids there? Do you volunteer in the children's ministry to love on these kids or is it someone else's job since you are all ready busy with your own? Or you just really need a break?
I dropped everything today, messed up our whole routine, kids were being horrible just so I could get a very important paper signed. Would I do that if a friend needed me? You bet! How about someone I just met? How about someone I didn't really get along with?
There is so much more I could write. What kind of life am I living? God's or mine with Him sprinkled in there somewhere? Jesus says you can't serve two masters, you either serve Him or you don't. Plain and simple. There are so many opportunity's that we have to serve Him, to share His love, to share the gospel. Are you? What about at a grocery store? or the gym? or the park? Do you go a whole day and not mention his name once to someone you don't know? How many people pass by us in a day who are lost, who desperately need a Savior and we could show them the way, but we are to consumed with living our own lives. Living our story instead of God's.
I don't want to live my life. Nothing good will every come from it. I want to be and live God's story. I don't want to just read the bible, I want to live it and share it. I want to ache so baldy for the people around me who don't know Him just as I would with my own family. I want to look for opportunity's to share His love and not hurry through whatever I am doing. I want to be a part of God's story and to help further His kingdom. I don't want to live my life that leads to death, I want to live His life that leads to life. Following, repenting, abiding, worshiping, seeking, telling others about Christ.
Are we all trying to recreate a place where we believe God will be or are we blooming where we are planted? Are we really truly giving God our all or do we give Him just enough that it won't hurt? Are we giving til it hurts? Our time?, our money? and trusting that God will replenish it or are we giving just enough?
And those days that we fail, (there will be many of them) we can take comfort in knowing that God's love never fails and His mercies are new every morning. Thank you Jesus!
"For I am not ashamed of the gospel, for it is the power of God for salvation to everyone who believes."Romans1:16
For some reason I was unable to load the video, but click on this song by Matthew West.
Matthew West- my own little world