Saturday, August 21, 2010


      I honestly thought that by the end of July we would have our money to send in our dossier. When that didn't happen, I felt discouraged. When I added up money that people told me they were going to mail me and then they didn't, I felt discouraged. When my friends who are also fund raising with me got their money in, I felt discouraged. When I realized that the money count was wrong  and I was NOT actually $500 away I was depressed! I made the HUGE mistake of adding money that I was told from several other people was coming and it didn't. I just got to excited and was on a roll, please forgive me for that horrible mistake.   Now it can still come in, but it has been a couple of weeks and so I needed to change the thermometer to where it actually is and not "promised" money. I needed to let go of the thought that it was coming :( This was horrible to do. It just feels like I can't even get close. I will not make that mistake again. I will only count the money that is in my hands. It is truly discouraging!

   BUT This past week I have received several precious emails from people just sending me encouragement, those emails always seemed to come at just the right time. (Thank you dear friends) Then, today some wonderful people in Oregon who I have never even met are having a yard sale  for some families who are adopting and we are one of them! Funny how God works. Even though I want  to feel discouraged, maybe even a little defeated and even though looking at the money that we still need kills me (have I told you how much I hate money?) I am not really all that disappointed anymore. My hubby and I have been in the word a lot this week together. More then our normal routine. We have been praying more together and just allowing the Lord to work more in our marriage and in our lives. I truly feel the Lord around me and He keeps giving me peace and believe it or not patience surrounding all this fund raising. I believe to my core that He is in control and that He will provide.

 Your continued prayers and support are very much appreciated!!!!

  Just a friendly reminder:
You have ONE more week to order your awesome adoption T-Shirts! These T-Shirts are not just for people who are/have adopted but they are for all of us because " In love He predestined us for adoption as sons through Jesus Christ, according to the purpose of His will." Ephesians 1:5  .....  What a great conversation starter!
The women's front. 



  1. I understand discouragement. It happens. Money is such a frustrating thing especially when it feels as it that is all that stands between you and your child. None the less the growth that comes from the Lord working in tough situations is worth it. His power is perfect in our weakness. More of Him and less of me is always my prayer.

    But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong. II Corinthians 12:9-10

    I've shared this one before but I found this verse during our adoption of Silas and shared it with other waiting families. I still love it.

    For still the vision awaits its appointed time; it hastens to the end—it will not lie. If it seems slow, wait for it; it will surely come; it will not delay. Habakkuk 2:3

    Praying for you, still praying for lots of shirts to sell and that your dossier fee is raised SOON! Love you.

  2. We had a hard time collecting the money in the dossier phase too. It's so so hard and sooo discouraging. I'm so sorry your feeling stressed and frustrated. Someday though, you'll look back on the timing of the entire adoption and realize that in each step where it felt like the waiting was unbearable, God had a reason. He has a child hand-chosen specifically for your family and He knows EXACTLY how the timing needs to work NOW to bring that child to your family.
    Currently we are on the waitlist, but I am already seeing glimpses of how God designed our adoption timeline not only to bring our daughter into our arms, but for our heart. took us forEVER to get on the waitlist and to complete our dossier. It seemed like everything was going wrong...but really everything was going just how God planned. If we had taken the normal timeframe to get on the waitlist, we could have very easily been accepting a referral during the rainy season and dealing with that loong wait for a court date. I truly believe God knew my heart couldn't handle that. If it had taken us any LONGER to get on the waitlist, our wait would have been MONTHS longer. No kidding - we were put on at #48 and a month later people were being put on the list in the 70's, and now in the 80's.
    I hope that is SOME encouragement for you as you follow God's will for your life. Be confident that He has paved the road ahead of you...He knows the way it winds and ultimately the way it ends. So hold on tight, its a bumpy (but well-worth it) ride!

  3. Prayers lifted up for you and yours. He will do what He has determined to do....never late, never early.

    Love ya. Hugs. : )

  4. I completely understand!! We want to be on the waitlist so badly and we are still $4,300 away!! It feels like it won't ever happen. We just all have to keep our heads up and support one another!!